Disease.

Looking into outer spaces, take count of how many disruptions.  Take it all in with a deep breath. What do they see when they look right at me? They don't see me. They see disease. I made a list of everything I wanted to do, long ago. It takes me a little more time, a little more energy. But I've marked off some things. When I say I'm gonna do something, god damn, I do it. Most days, I may feel like I don't have a voice, hands, or no feet. But, I do got heart and you're going to hear it. Maybe not today, but I'm going to do it. Some look at me as if I'm strong because of my weakness. They try to make it easy for me. Strength doesn't come from there or that easy. My strength comes from pain and being forced to face all the little voices in my own head saying, "You can't do this. You can't live like this." People have broke me down and made me feel unworthy. Walked out on me without feeling sorry. That is exactly what makes me. Look at me now. You don't give me any credit for ever growing up. What we had was independence. You walked away because of what you thought I couldn't handle. Give me some credit, all I know how to do is handle. I forget when I'm normal with friends. It's the only place where I really feel known. They hear me clear. They hear me clear. It's freedom to my voice. All of my fears fly away when I'm just in the city. It's where I'm completely happy. You walked into my life and let me be free. I hope that everyone understands me. It's not something I planned. You know better than myself that we are owed this. We can't stop it. We won't stop this. It's like I can with you. "I hope you don't see the weakness inside of me." Oh, I don't have that. Oh, you don't look at me. No. You see me. It's all I ever wanted.

Sometimes, I feel like I don't have a voice, hands,  no feet. But, I do got heart. Can you say that? Oh, you're going to hear from it. I got a disease.