Disease.

Looking into outer spaces, take count of how many disruptions.  Take it all in with a deep breath. What do they see when they look right at me? They don't see me. They see disease. I made a list of everything I wanted to do, long ago. It takes me a little more time, a little more energy. But I've marked off some things. When I say I'm gonna do something, god damn, I do it. Most days, I may feel like I don't have a voice, hands, or no feet. But, I do got heart and you're going to hear it. Maybe not today, but I'm going to do it. Some look at me as if I'm strong because of my weakness. They try to make it easy for me. Strength doesn't come from there or that easy. My strength comes from pain and being forced to face all the little voices in my own head saying, "You can't do this. You can't live like this." People have broke me down and made me feel unworthy. Walked out on me without feeling sorry. That is exactly what makes me. Look at me now. You don't give me any credit for ever growing up. What we had was independence. You walked away because of what you thought I couldn't handle. Give me some credit, all I know how to do is handle. I forget when I'm normal with friends. It's the only place where I really feel known. They hear me clear. They hear me clear. It's freedom to my voice. All of my fears fly away when I'm just in the city. It's where I'm completely happy. You walked into my life and let me be free. I hope that everyone understands me. It's not something I planned. You know better than myself that we are owed this. We can't stop it. We won't stop this. It's like I can with you. "I hope you don't see the weakness inside of me." Oh, I don't have that. Oh, you don't look at me. No. You see me. It's all I ever wanted.

Sometimes, I feel like I don't have a voice, hands,  no feet. But, I do got heart. Can you say that? Oh, you're going to hear from it. I got a disease.

Somewhere in the great coming.

My sky is of a million colors. You sit down and count them all without saying a word. Your tree is one of a million branches. They grow and reach for me without any accord. You feel me. I feel you feel me. Give me some credit. They won't give me any credit. I'm not the girl I used to be. I've grown and I'm not the same. You're the one that sees it. You're willing to risk it. You're willing to bet on me. Take me to the place where I met you. Somewhere in the great coming. Speak to me how the sun and moon are meant for something more. They are in the same room, but they never embrace. I'll wrap you in my color and hide you from the night. Just touch me how you will. Touch me right. Take root and ground yourself. And reach for me.

Crash.

When it all comes together, it's all beautiful. Like a bird's feather, defying the force. Floating down as we float up into the sky. I don't think you know how you've touched me. How you're going to touch me. We haven't even touched yet, not yet. Gravity is pulling us together. We're both pulling away, to pull away. I push outward to stop myself but I find myself close to your skin. You've turned away, but I see you staring when I enter the atmosphere. It's something we can't fight. It's something we won't fight anymore, someday. Someday we will crash, crash from this high. Crash from this high.

the year of now.

The smell of your skin.  It's in the air. I can almost feel it underneath my fingertips. Me, running them across your chest. How can you not know how I feel? You're afraid of my past and what it might do. It's gone now. It's the year of now. I woke up beside you in a dream of mine. Oh, I told you what was on my mind. Oh, you smiled and told me I was beautiful. We're too busy looking for what's simple in the most complicated places. But, we never looked in the most obvious place until now. It's the year of now.

Day 1

I drove by the place where you got sick
The night I told you I was taken
I was singing loud the words
I didn't care if I couldn't sing it right

It's sad how peoples' connections fade with live
The ones that you thought would survive
Can I go back to the first year of our five
Hit rewind and find a reason to hang on to something
I still think of you whenever I hear this song
Oh, oh... ooh, oh.
Can I go back to day 1

We lay on our backs to look at the sky
And we scream oh, oh, ohh oh
I'll know then to remain friends
because that's where it all goes bad
that's where it all ends


It's sad how peoples' connections fade with live
The ones that you thought would survive
Can I go back to the first year of our five
Hit rewind and find a reason to hang on to something
I still think of you whenever I hear this song
Oh, oh... ooh, oh.
Can I go back to day 1