Ms. Kitten and Mr. Mouse.

I have trying to keep my hands busy trying out different mediums, but that leads to a busy card. And, I’m not good at anything but you. But you keep me down, I don’t want to feel anything. You come at me in waves. I feel you sway in and out. You won’t stay still. One day, it’s all you want. The next you sink low. Why don’t you sing to me your soul? Why don’t give this life? Because this is older than I know. I’m giving up all I’ve ever wanted for this. I want to call and say that I miss the way you thought, you thought I was unique. I drink to have an excuse, but then I hang up the phone. Because, maybe, maybe I can’t get back to that summer when we sat there and I didn’t say a word. You asked me questions about myself. And, I didn’t say much afterwards. I was the girl that wore clothes to cover up her insecurities and spoke less to cover her indiscretions. I didn’t hide from you. The hardest thing for me is trust. And, I trust you. And, I have to be strong with strangers. Sincerely, you broke through my walls, but I can’t break through yours. It hurts me, because I thought I was special. When it comes to being strong, I’m weak with the ones I love. I am fragile when it comes to you. Because I can’t be strong all of the time. I burned four bridges in four weeks and build one back. And, you won’t cross it for me. I don’t want to play cat and mouse. I always lose. I don’t want that for myself anymore. I want love now. I don't want to be Ms. Kitten missing Mr. Mouse.