It's Away

The colors whisper through the leaves as they fade onto the ground.
What they try to tell me slips from my lips. I'm deaf.
I asked the universe why you're not around.
I'm scared that you're too far gone.
And you don't want saving.

The wind; it paints the floor with red footprints.
Where it is leading, fleeting. It's away.
I know you knew how to find your way, since.
You forgot to leave me when you fled.
And I want saving.

The sky cries ice because there's no hope like once before.
I was crying for him. You held me in the street.
It's not the same, no. You're not around.
They took you too far away.

You don't want saving.

familiar

sway, mesh, merge

I just want to memorize the skies with you. Lying on my back against the grass. Let's talk about the unknown. I can feel the rays of the sun in your palms as you hold my hand. And, we'll sway in our ideas. Let's just sway. Mesh. Merge into one. Let's talk about the stars that you see in my eyes. I just get this feeling when you look at me. We connect and I get the notion I belong right here unlike ever before. Our paths are swaying, meshing, merging into one. I just want to memorize the skies with you.

Lover or Death

Your heartbeats are footsteps, with each one you're making your way towards me. In rhythm, I can sense you closer with the passing of time. You are meant for me in a sense--meant for me in a way a breath needs lungs and lungs need breath. Even though I sit in solitude and have been to myself, that doesn't stop my passion and my need to be enraptured by your embrace. I still have it. Oh, I still have it. Lingering deep inside of me, a place in which only you can reach. Because I don't belong here and seldom do I feel some bit of familiarity. Familiarity of somewhere I know well. Bright green mountains and a river running through a meadow. It's all of mine. I get the notion that you know that place, too. Somewhere in the core of myself, farther than my organs and blood. I see you there with your feet in the flowing water, whispering the secrets in my ear. I hear your heartbeats. Your heartbeats are footsteps, with each one you're making your way towards me. In rhythm, I can sense you closer with the passing of time. Lover or death, you are meant for me in a sense-- in a way that none of the rest are.

push

We are connected
deeper than you'll ever feel safe
and it scares you
like it scares me
so we push
push
push away.
So we won't ever
ever
ever know.

I'm attached to no one, but the bottom.

death feels like a deep, blue sea. pushing me back down. it's intentional. don't open up your arms so you don't have to swim, it's so intentional, babe. letting the water fill my lungs. I can't, I won't attach to them like I want to attach myself to you a little too late. I know you so well. I know you won't save me. you can't even save yourself. the shark already came and took my heart. the whale with his mouth wide open tried to get the rest of me. but, I kept floating in the slow gravity with these chains. I'm at the bottom all alone, just the way I feel safe and I'm attached to no one, but the bottom. I'm the bottom feeder.

BLACK SIGHT

Black sight, no light.
Only knowing what is not in front of us.
Just let me do this right.

A low slow, steady flow.
Only knowing how shallow it is not beneath.
Just let me explore the below.

Clear white, high flight.
Only knowing myself not at all.
Just let me fly like a kite.

High fall, losing it all.
Only knowing not what we were.
Just let me stand tall.